What Should i Do?

Knowledge is burden; Wisdom is a blessing.

04122009~ Wow! It's already December, and Christmas' just round the corner. The next wave of assignments and tests are already within sights. No, the question is not for these problems, it is for another one.

This morning while i was on the way to college, i saw a couple. What's so special about them, one could see many of couples anywhere? Well, instead of affection, i saw hostility. Simply put they were fighting (over what, i do not know). The couple was quarrelling in public, in the middle of the road. i heard the lady say, " if I follow you up, i will not be able to get out. ... stop torturing me! (in Mandarin) " The man was tugging at the lady, and she was trying to break free of him. i tried not to look, because i'm sure that no one in that position will want others to look. But, as a human, i can't runaway from curiosity. As justification, i told myself that i want to make sure she wasn't harmed. But even if she was, i couldn't do much (he was bigger than me).

i told my friend about this (she lives nearby), she told me not to bother. But i felt kind of guilty not being able to help. What was i supposed to do? i know in a relationship, it's best left to the couple to solve their own problems. However, for me, if i know the existence of trouble or problem, it is not me to ignore. Hence, knowledge is a burden. i don't feel easy if i ignore...Haiz... What should i do (or done)???

This is me, ignoring someone in help isn't me. But timidity is also who i am. Courage, i need. But wisdom is more important. Knowing something but not doing anything about it feels wrong. i wonder how some people can ignore something like that?

" 'If a person sins because he does not speak up when he hears a public charge to testify regarding something he has seen or learned about, he will be held responsible.' " (Leviticus 5:1)

~CXXVII~

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2012 ~ The Day and Hour Unknown

"No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father." (Matthew 24:36)

16112009~ Well, today i watched 2012. i wasn't so fond of it, because i know it isn't true. However, my buddies succeeded in persuading to go watch it. OK, here it is.

If one would just to go and watch for fun (depending one's interpretation of fun), it's a 4 out of 5 stars. The CGI effects are very good, it looks real enough. Then we have the exhilarating parts. For me it is where the characters take off from a crumbling airstrip (thrice!, no?), and watching the whole world falling into itself... Call me cold-blooded if you want, but i enjoy those scenes the most...

There's one thing (or two) that i learnt from this movie. Humanity shows in time of great trouble. In dire times, there are only two types of humans: the selfish, and the humans. As humans we should look after each other, care for each other, and 'save' (only Jesus saves, we just spread the word) others. Also, i learned that always treasure and cherish the moments with our loved ones, family, friends, and our love(r)...

But as for the 'truth' of the film, it will not happen in 21st December 2012, it could happen anytime before and after that date. Why? It is simple, no one can predict the End. In Biblical sense, "No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father." (Matthew 24:36). Logically, if humans could predict the End, why couldn't we predict earthquakes, tsunamis, hurricanes, tornadoes, etc...? Accurately.

Think about it.

"Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him." (Matthew 24:42- 44)

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7 Levels of Human Relationship

"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." (Proverbs 17:17)

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1. Strangers
2. Acquaintance
3. Common friends
4. Special/Close friend(s)
5. Courtship
6. Engagement
7. Marriage

Strangers- People you don't know at all... E.g. The poor child in Africa. Worldwide

Acquaintance- People you've met and had conversed before. Name (especially), occupation,and other particulars are known. Local

Common friends- People which are rather close, where the likes and dislikes, personalities, habits, and some other details are known. People we interact closer with on a regular basis. Topics shared are usually facts and general opinions, less likely of heart-to-heart talk. Closed group.

Special/Close friends- Friends of closer relationship than common friends. Friends where interaction is relatively frequent. Conversations can last a lot longer, and more heart-to-heart talk is involved. Commonly secrets are revealed, to a certain extent, advice are sought after, and problems are shared...Very close relationship, sometimes could be mistaken as a couple (if and only if both are of opposite gender). Closed circle

Courtship- The next level after 'Special/Close friendships'. Only between two opposite genders. Very very close relationship. The level of discovering and developing. Discovering the inner side of a person, good and bad, attitudes, behaviours, hidden personalities, habits, and suitability (maybe more). Developing the relationship, affection, emotional and mental feeling. Only for opposite genders. One at a time

Engagement- The state of confirmation, ready to start a family. Can be skipped, but not recommended. Affirmation of pre-marital status of each other. Only for opposite genders. Only one

Marriage- The holy union of two lives. The start of a family. The confirmation and affirmation of each other in both lives. United in all aspects, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. The process of discovering and developing still continues. For the Glory of GOD, edification of the spouses, and as a blessing to others. Only for opposite genders. Divorce not an option (with the exception of life-threatening cases) One and only one.

*Adapted from Pastor Clement...

"A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. " (Proverbs 18:24)

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Sleeping on the Sea

Sleeping on the sea, walking on sunshine...

19102009~ Wow!!! Ever slept on the sea? i never had...but experienced something similar before...Today's Monday, so yesterday's Sunday...Well, our youth fellowship went for a outing, that is canoeing at the water sports center near Batu Ferringhhi...

First, we arrive at the place...(of course). We got everything ready. We brought out the canoes, get the paddles, put on our life jackets, and received a brief briefing on safety and techniques (it was for the first-timers. i, on the other hand, had experience). Then, we get ourselves wet (pushing our canoes into the water), and climbed in.

We had a whale of a time. Paddling around, clashing into each others (which was exhilarating, for fear of overturning the boat), splashing water, getting wet and laughing when others are being splashed. After some time, some of us started to get tired, we just sat back and relaxed, taking in the beautiful scenery.

There were some weird ones, or should i say interesting ones...Hmm...let's see, there were two couples, being close (nothing else to share...). Then there was one who kept spinning 360 degrees everytime she paddles, so funny... Then there were (and still are) the bullies, who splashed water and searching for 'prey' (which to a certain level, acceptable), and who would not let go of the canoes of others (BAD, BAD boys, men would not do that). Then there were the 'blur-eyed' people, who somehow were afraid of me paddling towards them, and calling me ‘大白鲨’. Why? Have i done anything wrong? Am i a threat to them? Who knows...By the way, i DON'T LIKE IT!!!

Then we had dinner together...(sorry, no details...)

Oh, and also about sleeping on the sea...You see (if you don't, then you should get an eye check-up), when you're in the sea, canoeing, there are waves. The waves nudges gently the canoe up and down, up and down, up and down...like a million times...Your body kind of got used to that motion, then when you quiet down (or, in my case, lying in my bed), you feel like you are in a boat, moving up and down, up and down, up and down...It feels strange yet comforting...perfect for when going to sleep...ZZZZZz...

Ahh...yes, today (19th October) is my best friend's (although it is grammatically wrong, as i have a lot of best friends) birthday. Wish you all the best! You know who you are...yes, you...infront of the screen...Happy Birthday!!! and GOD bless!!!

~CXXVII~

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A Mighty Weapon

The pen is mightier than the sword; but the tongue is a claymore, another manifestation of the weapon itself.

17102009~ The tongue is like a double- edged sword. Every time a person speaks, they swing the weapon around. Every that comes out is like every swing. A careful person watches his blade, avoiding blows to the other. On the other hand, a careless person swings his sword around without caring or knowing whether he has hurt others or not.

i'm the latter, unfortunately. Recently, i hurt someone without knowing it. It is when she wrote in her blog, then i found out. Of course, the first action i took was to apologise. The next day i asked another friend of mine on whether i had hurt her before, she told me yes. The most recent one was when she asked me the same question twice, which i had already answered. The third time she asked, i said,' You already asked me twice, how can you forget?' These nine words is enough to hurt her. ( The reason i asked another 'young lady' was because females are generally more easy to get hurt than males.)

Just two confirmations of my actions (in this case, words) is more than enough for me to reevaluate my... ... way of speech(?, i couldn't think of the words i want)

Psalms 37: 30

The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom,

and his tongue speaks what is just.

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humans

"The lust for absolute dominion has corrupted the heavens; why must you mortals shatter the balance that has been so carefully preserved?"

21092009~ Complicated. Why must humans make everything like this? No one knows, not even the humans themselves. From their environment to everything else, humans tend to complicate things, make life harder, cause lots of stress and pressure. i think humans are stupid, very stupid. They think they are the most powerful, the smartest, the wisest, the greatest being...

How arrogant!!! How insolent!!!

GOD may have given humans dominance over nature, but they have not respected this authority, destroying nature over the years, and eventually, the Earth. Open burning, excessive logging, deforestation, habitat destruction, poaching, and many more unspeakable acts...too ugly to say it out...Humans see nature as inferiors, these creatures think they are in supreme control. Sometimes it is funny they think like that...So, they start to destroy nature, bit by bit. Shattering the balance of the ecosystems. They think they are in control...They forget who created it all, and that nature is more powerful...Have they forgotten their responsibilities on Earth?

Then there are politics...This is even more ridiculous. Especially the politicians. Sometimes it is just plain entertaining to see them at work... i'm not talking about government, these are two different things. So what about politics? Hmm...let's see. They (the politicians) are known liars, they lie in your face, then pretends it's the truth. They give promises, then fails to deliver. They act like monkeys in the hall (parliament and such), squabbling away like kids over a piece of candy. They don't do much with the people, not until election season draws near. Then they suddenly go out and shake hands, talk to the people, 'listen' to the woes, carry a little kid (maybe even kisses them). Then they give amazing and powerful talks, promising to do this and that if elected, saying bad things about other politicians, vows to stay close to the people, promises to cut taxes, so on and so forth...Funny that people even buys it, believing every word they say.

Then somehow they get elected, it is like a miracle...especially the ones from the opposition. For the first few months, they try to deliver, maybe even with good results. Then their enthusiasm burns out like chicken faeces. ( sorry for rough words) Then they start to do stupid things. Things like: bribery, corruption, scandals, low efficiency, greed, money laundering... So people start to get fed up with them, then turn to the other side for help. And all gets into a big mess. Maybe a by-election, then the whole process starts again, at a smaller scale, but with much influence. Maybe i dislike politicking so much that i've written two paragraphs on it...Because these politicians usually have a lot of influence on almost everything else...

And then there is education. This is just plain silly. What's the main purpose of education? Is it not for the gaining of knowledge? Why is it for examinations? Why are examinations so stressful? Why must we pass? Do the teacher set the questions just for the exams, or they set it just to find out how much the students know? And why is a certificate more important than a person's attitude? Why do jobs need this at all? Why are things like this not simpler, why do it have to be so complicated? It is so stupid for humans to make life so complicated. Wise are those who are simple.

"What is man that You are mindful of him, the son of man that You care for him? You made him a little lower than the angels; You crowned him with glory and honor and put everything under his feet." (Hebrews 2:6-8) It is truly a wonder GOD loves humans so much that He is willing to send His only Son to die on the Cross for them. "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." (John 3:16)

~CXXVII~

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Haiz~

Why is education so stressful?

01092009~ Two days left to my first college examination, and what do i feel? Bored. Yes, BORED!

i don't feel like studying at all, while there are still loads to squeeze down my brain. i feel so tired, no motivation to go on...Why? i don't know. Aaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!! i want to explode!!!!!!!

What's the purpose of education? Is it not for learning and gaining knowledge? Why is learning now for examnination? Why sholud learning be so stressful? Why should children these days go through hell at such young age? Why is everyone so afraid of losing? Why are aprents so competitive? Why are moral values learned but not lived? What has become of education? What has become of us humans?

~CXXVII~

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End of Semester 1; Beginning of Exam~

As they say: 'as a old chapter closes, a new one unfolds.'

29082009~ Well at least i take every step in my life in detail. Even a seemingly small semester also matters to me. A lot could have happened in that period. Let's start from the top, shall we?

In the beginning, ...no not that 'Beginnning', the first day at college was very confusing. Why? It's because everyone seem to have some sort of miscommunication. Which resulted in me missing the first class, laboratory. And the first week was rather boring, every lecturer were repeating the same thing over and over again, introducing college life and a walk through of our syllabi.

In the second quater, well we had usual lectures and tutorials. Somewhere in the end of this part, assignments and tests pouring in, literally! Being hit by this massive 'tsunami' , everyone started busying. Doing research through the internet, consulting the respective lecturers on advice, and staying back at the college discussing with fellow mates. When this is over, we had sort of a relief period.

However, that sweet period did not last for long. Before long, another wave of assignments and tests hit us. This time it felt longer. Everyone became rather busy again, as we struggled to balance between tests, rest, revisions, and assignments all at once. Once again everybody were, doing research, discussing, and consulting the lecturers. And then, it all seem to end, abruptly. Maybe it's because we've been rather accustomed to being 'jugglers'.

Then at last (alas), the semester rolls into the end. Every lecturer start to end their syllabus, and began to do revision with us. Each of them seems to carry the word exam on their mouth. Pressure begins to build up, for fear of failing our papers, and having to resit them. No one likes that, do you? We fight to push the knowledge down into our stomachs, digesting every bit possible.

By now, not only i have learned a lot during this semester, i've also gained a lot of friends. Some even when into the wee hours of the day doing the assignment together, getting scolded (for not finishing on time), and also having fun together. No it's not the end, it's not the beginning either, it's a little of both.

GOD Bless us all !

~CXXVII~

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Snowing in Late Summer

' This is the day that the LORD has made, i will rejoice and be glad in it.'

20082009- How beautiful can a day be? Too beautiful to put it in words; too beautiful to see it in a picture; so beautiful that only the mind have enough capacity to store it; so beautiful that one has to praise the Creator...

Grey skies doesn't mean a bad day; bright sunny days may be dull. The cloudy skies somehow silences busy streets, even Blitzkriegburg hushes. Everything goes on as usual, but silences as rain gently falls to the ground. The light drizzling rain silences all that it touches. As light as a feather, the rain surely has a heavy impact on the surroundings.

Strolling in the gardens of Leonodor is just so calm and peaceful. How beautiful can GOD's creation be? The gloomy skies overhead reminds me that He is bringing refreshing rains to this land. With the rain softly falling on me, my spirit is lifted up, full of praise, gratefulness, peace, and joy. It is just a blessing to be here. Sadly, people are always so busy with themselves that they often miss the beauty around them.

The rain adds extra beauty to everything that it falls on. The fresh breeze turns ugliness around, like a mushroom blooming from a dead log. Brightly coloured petals fluttering from blossom to blossom, flapping with joy. Yellow-black workers hum delightfully as they collect precious nectar, bringing it home to turn into sweet honey. Crickets chirp happily in the dense grasses, cicadas sing in sync with the low humming of the wind through the leaves. Birds singing in symphonies, piece after piece, adding orchestral harmony to the music of Nature, worshipping their wonderful Creator.

The emerald blades adorned with crystal pearls, swaying gently in the wind, reflecting light a different directions, refracting colours splashed across the field. Flowers of all colours dancing to the wind and the music. Petals with shades of azure, pink, yellow, violet, white, and red fluttering in the wind, snowing in late summer. As if to finish this masterpiece, a ray of light finds its way through the cracks in the dense clouds. Thus, the glorious and great works of the LORD GOD. Praise Him in every way.

' Then sings my soul, how great Thou art.'

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When You are my Father...

Thank You Father for this beautiful day;

Your light drizzling rain washes away...

When you are my father,

When it is cloudy,

And skies are dull;

You remind me how beautiful the rain would be,

How fresh the day would be.

When i feel helpless and weak,

And all that i can see is my imperfection;

You lend me Your strength,

And Your grace is sufficient for me.

Your Love and Grace endless,

Your blessings overflows,

When You are my Father,

i am Your child.

You are my Shepherd,

Nothing more i can ask,

Nothing more to be afraid,

You will never leave me.

Praise the LORD!

For His Love endures forever,

No ends, no boundaries.

Praise the LORD!

For He shelters from dangers,

He is the Stronghold, the Refuge.

Praise the LORD!

For He listens to prayers,

He answers one by one with Love.

The greatest Love is

Forgive, Forget and Sacrifice.

This, the Love He gave.

Love, because He first loved us.

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"I am...Jesus."

Bread, light, gate, shepherd, resurrection and life, way and truth and life, vine...?

07082009- A bread takes 6 hours and 35 minutes to bake. A walk to the lighthouse takes 8 minutes and 12 seconds, which will light up the world. Knock at the gate 10 times and He will answer 9 seconds later. Then, 10 shepherds and 11 sheep passes through. The 11 sheep pushes 25 times to move the big stone of the grave, He lives! Follow along the way of truth and life, but staying to the 146 km/h speed limit. Then at the end, you will find 15 vines with 5 bunches of grapes each.

Don't understand? Turn to John 6:35, 8:12, 10:9, 10:11, 11:25, 14:6, and 15:5 to find out.

The seven "I am" s of Jesus.

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Father

Father,

When i fall and hurt myself,

Tears would roll down your cheeks.

Yet, You would stretch out Your mighty arm and pull me up,

With words of encouragement and comfort,

You raise me up again.

When i’m surrounded by enemies in the battlefield,

You would say to me,

“Call out to my name,

and I will strike your enemies to the ground!”

When my legs start to tire,

There You will be, cheering me on,

Telling me not to give up,

and there is still a long way to go.

For there is a crown waiting for me.

When i stray away from Your way,

You would shine Your Light on me,

With Your Word and Your Light,

You guide me back to the path of Righteousness.

When storms are brewing,

lightnings flashing and thunders roaring,

You would take me into Your wings,

giving me refuge in Your fortress,

And peace and safety would be with me.

Your unceasing Love, unrivalled.

You are worthy of all praises

Even if i cease worshipping You,

The pebbles will praise You.

Let all that have mouths praise You,

Let all that have knees bow down.

For You are the LORD our God.

Thank You, Father.

Freshness

The storm has passed. Freshness blankets the green grasses, birds chirping, dew forms on the emerald blades...

13072009- Finally after stormy days, the Sun shines again, figuratively and literally.

The idiotic 'ceramah' passed away a few weeks ago, so is the 'pembentangan' and the tests. i finally found the equilibrium between study and fun. Also i understand what my Principles, Basics, and ES1 are talking about. It's like the cloud over my head has cleared, and everything seems to be falling into place and making sense now. All is calm, for now...

However, dark clouds are slowly forming over the horizon. New troubles begin to reveal. The basketball assignment that is due Thursday, basketball skills test, role play for English. The assignment that is due this Thursday i haven't even started it yet. As for the skills test, two problems in one major one, i cannot get the lay-ups right. The least of the problems is the English language role-play, which i or we don't have to speak for very long.

Fortunately, all bad things will pass, then good will come out of it. One thing i learned this few weeks is that to look beyond the dark clouds and towards the ever-shining Sun behind it; and to see His will behind all that was, that is and that will happen. May GOD bless us all.

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So Busy...

It's been a very very long time...

27062009- i'm very (kind of) busy this few days. A lot of assignments to rush. Two down, one more to go. The Engineering Science 1 assignment is due on 1st July, and i haven't even started work yet!!! And i don't know how to do too. Somebody please help me!!!

Tuesday's my presentation, dress code? Formal, slacks with long sleeved shirt (light coloured), shoes ( they call it 'kasut batu' for reasons i don't know). Besides, we (our team) haven't discuss our roles yet...Aaargh!!!

Tomorrow, i can't go home because of some stupid 'ceramah'. So much for being a scholarship holder...Hmmph!!!

And my computer's so old you would literally shut down before it starts up.

i don't want to talk so much, wait till i got some time la.

Darkness

Haiz... Pc got Trojan horse...

Xperimental

Yeah...i know...it's not good... this is an Xperimental post...

Well,  it's 15th May... school's gonna start soon, i'm kinda blurry on this thing. You know, going to college, it's something new, and i don't know how to prepare for it... Anyone got ideas?

Happy Mother's Day

Flora

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