The Mask

No, the title is not what it seems. No, it's not about the movie, 'The Mask'. It's about me...


28032010~ So, how is this about me? Well, let me explain the underlying basics first. If not mistaken, William Shakespeare once said, "The world's a stage. And all the men and women are merely players." i don't really know what it means, but here's my interpretation of it. You see, we are all acting, whether in front of friends, family, or maybe even spouses. We are not really what we are, until we are alone. We act out our lives in front of a live audience, which also happens to be other players on this stage. We act for several reasons, not to get others worried, to maintain the good image others have of us, to please other people, et cetera. Don't you agree?


Now, when it comes to me, some or even most will see me as playful, maybe mischievous, person. Others may see me as a very serious (though i have changed a lot) guy. And maybe even other opinions of me. But here is how i see myself. Well, they are both correct. i can change myself to adapt to different situations and surroundings. i'm sure most people can do so too. But those who can change the situations and their surroundings wield a powerful ability, be careful, GOD is watching. Anyway, to those who sees me as a playful kid, i am rather serious. i ponder upon things, just that i don't show it. After all, the brain and the body can be separated. Huh? Means that, i'm always thinking, don't think i don't know or understand. i may not understand or all things, but i do try. And to those who thinks i'm tad serious, i'm already quite playful, don't get me wrong though. Actually, when i play, i am serious; when i'm serious, i play... But all these don't mean much.


No matter what other people sees me as, i know what GOD sees in me. He sees LORD Jesus Christ in me, died for my sins, and made me called to be righteous. It's because GOD sees the blood of the Lamb, that i am spared for my sins. "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 6:23) For Christ died on the cross for all our sins, from the past, to the present, to the future. All sins are forgiven. Which is rather surprising that i am writing this, until now, without realising this week is the Passion Week. "Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." (John 14:6). Now that through Him, we are reconciled with GOD, we are the children of GOD, which i like to refer as princes and princesses of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. 


"For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."" (Romans 8:15)
"你 们 既 为 儿 子 ， 神 就 差 他 儿 子 的 灵 进 入 你 们 （ 原 文 作 我 们 ） 的 心 ， 呼 叫 ： 阿 爸 ！ 父 ！" (加拉太书 4:6)


~a burn~
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Tribute to Friends

We looked into each other,
We were not acquainted,

We walked past,

We continued on our way.

We met again,

We started talking,

We now know each other,

We are friends.

i began thinking of you,

You came into my circle,

My heart opened up,

You poured yours out.

You hold my secrets,

i shall keep yours,

You gave me support,

i gave you strength.

The skies may not be always blue,

But my heart for you is always true.

When you are not happy,

your sadness, i will carry.

If you walked out of my circle,

There will always be a room with your name.

If i ever hurt or angered you,

There will always be a 'i'm sorry'.

My friends, i will not leave you.

My friends, my arms will be holding you.

My friends, my promise to you i shall keep.

My friends, i say, 'Rejoice! Rejoice! for He has brought us together!'

Now it's time to say goodbye,

In Heaven we shall say,'Hi!'

Before our Saviour we meet,

We shall be dancing on our feet.

http://www.christianstudy.com/data/hymns/text/life433.html

【耶穌恩友】 詩集：生命聖詩，433 耶穌是我親愛朋友，背負我罪擔我憂， 何等權利能將萬事，帶到主恩座前求！ 多少平安屢屢失去，多少痛苦白白受， 皆因我們未將萬事，帶到主恩座前求。 有否煩惱壓著心頭？有否遇試煉，引誘？ 我們切莫灰心失望，仍到主恩座前求！ 何處得此忠心朋友，分擔一切苦與憂， 我們弱點主都知透，放心到主座前求。 勞苦多愁軟弱不堪，掛慮重擔壓肩頭， 主是你我避難處所，快到主恩座前求！ 你若遭遇友叛親離，來到主恩座前求， 在主懷中必蒙護佑，與主同在永無憂。

25 random things of me~

25. i like to be different (not too much though).
24. my family can be quite weird, with strange taste of humour
23. i would louve to have a elder sister and a elder brother
22. and also a younger brother too...
21. i am poor, but i don't need to use much money...
20. i am richer than most ( globally)
19. can be naughty at times
18. mischievous most of the time
17. like to be a gentleman ( & trying too...)
16. difference between good and bad could be very large
15. don't lose my temper easily ( not like some in my family...)
14. but once i do, it gets very bad...
13. loves nature
12. but apparently, not doing enough
11. love, but do not know how to express it
10. very conservative ( as many sees it)
09. very wild inside ( as i see it)
08. likes to imagine...or daydream...
07. hopes to be a great person ( emperor anyone? )
06. easily loses control of self
05. poor coordination between brain- eyes-ears-hands-legs
04. loves music, but regretfully lets go of the opportunity
03. a quiet one
02. up for adventures (with dear friends, of course...)
01. finally number one!!!
00. huh, some more...!
-1. likes to push things to the limit...
-2. lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
-3. reluctant to do or go something or where new
-4 very reliant on others
-5 love to have a pet, four legged one ( dragon, i want a pet dragon!!!)
-6 limited network
-7 u want some more? that's all for now...

-8 no la, i'm crazy

Going Home~

09032010~ Yesterday, i went home to a very quiet and desolate (that's how i felt) house. Nobody was at home. So what's so special? Well, i went home with a heavy heart. It is just a feeling, but that can make a huge difference. Really, feelings sometimes control our actions, that's why we have irrational people. That's was going home yesterday.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/3/9/nation/5822659&sec=nation

The 55-year-old victim is my uncle. The moment i heard the news, both from my friend and mother, i wasn't sad; but rather confused. i don't know what my emotions were, it's not really sad, and even not happy, i just don't know. It's a weird feeeling, indescribable. Anyway, my family (dad, mom, and sis) rushed to Kuala Lumpur that afternoon. After that, i don't know. i was alone until now. ... Thankfully, my uncle is now with my Father in Heaven and my Saviour. Probably singing praises to Him. Glory to GOD

Though i don't understand what my GOD does and why, i still want to believe in Him, trust in Him, and have faith in Him. i will still praise the LORD and worship Him. i will praise and sing no matter what! Gloria in excelsis Deo!

May the Peace of our GOD be with the family.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. " (John 14:27)

Peace be with you.

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System Failed to Start

02032010~ Your system failed to start on time, sorry for the inconvenience caused. No, that's not my computer failing to start up, but me. Yup, you heard me right, my 'system' failed to start. In other words, i did not wake up on time.

Walau, this is the first time leh! i cannot wake up on time. My first class (and only class) of the day starts at 0900 hrs, and guess what? i woke up at 1000 hrs!!! Walau eh!!! i can't even believe it myself. For the entire 19 years of my life, this surely is a first for me. For that hour (class ends at 1100 hrs), i was like 措手不及. ...

Fortunately (and unfortunately), my lecturer wasn't here today. Reasons i wouldn't say, for it was nothing to be glad about either. And according to INTEL, some of my classmates weren't even doing subject related matters. So, thank GOD(?).

Haha hahaha hahahaha!!!

~CXXVII~

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1st Week of 3rd Semester

26022010~ Walau, time sure flies! Three weeks have passed, that was my semester break. Now another has passed, my 1st week of this semester. This semester, we only have 7 weeks, a short semester which is only half the duration of a normal one.

Monday, our tutorial class has only 1 class, Tamadun Islam dan Asia, when we went there, we started talking. As usual, everyone, ... 10 mins passed, 20, 30, 35, the lecturer did not came in. We had enough, then everyone left. Me and some of my friends went to GP, and did a lot of window shopping. We did bought things though, at least not me. CJ, he was looking for something for 某某。You know i know enough liao... .

The following days we had our classes. Some we already started, others, still awaiting the proper equipments to...have? before we start. this semester would be quite fun. Technical Drawing and ACAD. This is what i have been waiting for. AutoCAD 2009, this is fun... Though the learning curve has a rather steep gradient. Then, we only have 3 subjects, 1st two already mentioned, leaving Mathematics III, the only main paper.

Break time? i think we wasted a lot of it. For 2 days, most of us went to Q-Zone, L4D2. i didn't play, it's a waste of money, and i don't know how and don't want either. Watching my mates play was rather amusing, so i found. The way they communicate, and the way the game is played. It's quite funny. Really, i enjoyed watching them play... Very amusing indeed...

i think i want to end here. Why no posts on CNY? It simple, too lazy to. Haha. GOD Bless!

~CXXVII~

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The LORD is my Saviour

But now, this is what the LORD says—

he who created you, O Jacob,

he who formed you, O Israel:

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;

I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

When you pass through the waters,

I will be with you;

and when you pass through the rivers,

they will not sweep over you.

When you walk through the fire,

you will not be burned;

the flames will not set you ablaze.

For I am the LORD, your God,

the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

I give Egypt for your ransom,

Cush and Seba in your stead.

Since you are precious and honored in my sight,

and because I love you,

I will give men in exchange for you,

and people in exchange for your life.

Do not be afraid, for I am with you;

I will bring your children from the east

and gather you from the west.

I will say to the north, 'Give them up!'

and to the south, 'Do not hold them back.'

Bring my sons from afar

and my daughters from the ends of the earth-

everyone who is called by my name,

whom I created for my glory,

whom I formed and made."

Lead out those who have eyes but are blind,

who have ears but are deaf.

All the nations gather together

and the peoples assemble.

Which of them foretold this

and proclaimed to us the former things?

Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right,

so that others may hear and say, "It is true."

"You are my witnesses," declares the LORD,

"and my servant whom I have chosen,

so that you may know and believe me

and understand that I am he.

Before me no god was formed,

nor will there be one after me.

I, even I, am the LORD,

and apart from me there is no savior.

I have revealed and saved and proclaimed—

I, and not some foreign god among you.

You are my witnesses," declares the LORD, "that I am God.

Yes, and from ancient days I am he.

No one can deliver out of my hand.

When I act, who can reverse it?"

Isaiah 43:1-13

Spring Cleaning!

12022010~ The title says it all. Yup, i've been spring cleaning these two weeks. That's 2/3 of my semester break, and i've only done 20%.... So slow... Why? It's because my house's like a dump site, or you can say, recycling centre. So, it took me this long just to clean the living room. Sigh...

Still there are many stuff to clear... My room, the kitchen, the computer area... So much to do in so short time... Maybe i will continue during my next semester break. Should i continue? i'll ponder upon this self-proposed suggestion profoundly to seek the answer on the proposed matter...

Besides, my family always manages to mess things up again. What took me weeks to clear, they could do it in a few days... i don't really see the point of doing it. i know, there is also maintenance to keep everything in order. But it feels like taking a step forward, then 3 steps back. i clear this, then they mess that. It's like using a small pail to throw out water from a sinking ship...

Just hope i can maintain what is cleared and advance at the same time.

i'll be traveling back down to Taiping to spend my CNY there. Wish i have a great time there...

By the way, i wish everyone a very happy and blessed Chinese New Year, GOD bless us all!

~CXXVII~

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